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I know that I should be chomping at the bit and all - since, I don't know, my due date is on Friday, but I'm not. After my sister informed me of the whole two weeks late phenom, I just kind of let go of any anticipation. When my doc told me last week that I was one centimeter dilated and would be surprised if I went beyond my due date, I was excited. And then I thought, "He doesn't know! He hasn't a clue! He's not a magician! People can be dilated 1 cm for weeks! Please!" So, I'm relaxing or "chilaxin'."

People at work are getting quite nervous about the idea of working until I actually go into labor. But I don't really want to sit at home and twiddle my thumbs. Yes, I have stuff to do. But I'd really prefer my time off to be spent with the little guy.

There's a lot of talk at work about what my plans are and how I'm going to get to the hospital, etc. And I wave them off, thinking, you know, it's the first time, I just don't see myself going into rapid labor and giving birth on the floor of my office. I just don't (uh, knock on wood). And when people ask how I plan on getting to the hospital when my water breaks (which apparently doesn't actually happen with that much frequency - it's more likely to be a slow leak) I shrug and say, I don't know, I guess the subway? When they ask if my bags are packed, I say, um, no, I haven't figured out how to pack stuff that I actually need. When someone suggests that I bring an extra skirt with me everyday and pads, I say, that sounds like a good idea, and then proceed to work and forget about it. I know. I must be driving people completely insane. Am I normally like this? Not really. But being huge and tired has made me less, I don't know, uptight, then I was, perhaps even two weeks ago. I'm excited to meet the little guy, but know that he's going to come when he's going to come. If it goes on too long, though, there may be castor oil in my future . . .

Well, I'm off to forget to pack my bag, bring an extra skirt and pads, and instead, continue reading The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo and likely fall asleep.