Post-Op

So amazingly, I felt virtually no pain immediately after the surgery. They must have pumped me up with a lot of the good stuff prior to my coming to . . . I also managed the pain on ibuprofen at home. It was an interesting day after the surgery - I don't know when the last time was that I had that much time alone. Maybe two years? I watched a lot of movies (the Kiddo was at daycare).

I've had a LOT of people commenting lately on our (at this point, imaginary) second child - strangers commenting that we will be having a girl, etc. (hello, I'm not even pregnant yet!). Most people seem to assume we'll be having another. It took us a long time to come to the conclusion that we wanted to try for a second child. I'm a lot older (I got pregnant three years ago!) and well, becoming pregnant for me has never been the difficult part, staying pregnant is another matter entirely. Did I want to go through that again? The possibility is there. It's looming. I try to tell myself that I will be OK if it doesn't work out, because I am deliriously happy and feel incredibly lucky to have one, yet I know the truth: I will feel completely knocked out if we are unable to have a second child. What will we do then? Adopt? I'm not sure. I remember reading a few seasoned bloggers who had gone through multiple miscarriages, finally had a child, and then went through hell in order to have a second (or in some cases, twins). At that point, without even one, I thought they were being, oh, I don't know, greedy? Crazy? But wanting to have a child is such a normal, natural and biological need. If it doesn't work out . . . well, I don't know. For now, onwards.

As far as daycare goes - I sat there with the Kiddo for about 2 1/2 hours and decided that the daycare wasn't for us. It's a good place, but the Kiddo was the youngest one, there were a lot more kids in the class than I was expecting and it was a tad too Lord of the Flies in there. We may try it again in the fall when he's a tad older and I am, er, he is, a tad tougher (I think ultimately he would be fine - I was another matter altogether).

Post-op appointment on Friday.