New Milestones

The other night, very late, the Bambino awoke and began crying. I then went searching, half-blind, for his pacifier. I knew it was in his co-sleeper somewhere. When I couldn't find it, I was forced to trudge off to the kitchen. When I returned, the Wee One had found his pacifier himself and had it in his mouth. Now, for some people this may not be such a big deal - for me, however, seeing as I had never seen him do this before, it completely cracked me up. He is also now rolling over - which means that I can't just plop him down in our bed anymore - especially when the other night he lay there sleeping, rolled over and landed in the c0-sleeper. He was not pleased. He's now sitting up as well. This is quite a crazy development. Obviously I know that he will meet these milestones at some point - but it's shocking to me each time it happens. Recently I sat with him in our glider, looked up at the Husband and said, "Is this real? Am I really holding our son?" Sometimes, I really just can't believe it.

Thank you to all who voted on my photography project - if only I'd learned about the contest earlier. At any rate, it's a project I've been thinking about for a long, long time. So, thank you.

As I told all my friends on facebook about the project, many of whom did not know about the recurrent miscarriages, a friend of mine e-mailed that she'd like to get together. She also told me that she wanted to meet because she's just had her second miscarriage and she wanted to talk to someone who understands. I can't tell you how much this killed me. It's so upsetting to think about ANYONE having to go through miscarriage, let alone one of your good friends. I'm so glad, however, that because of my "coming out" that I may be able to be there for her. So, perhaps it's a milestone for me as well - I've come out to a bunch of people and nothing horrible happened. It's a hell of a lot easier to do so, however, when you feel as though you are through it and not in the thick of it.