There are still moments when I find all of this, well, shocking, amazing, unbelievable. I wasn't able to read books on birth or child care until, well, very, very recently - which makes things a little daunting as I try to read as many books as possible in these last few weeks. Not to mention trying to absorb the information.
We had our child care class last night. While the husband looked on lovingly at his swaddled fake baby (his swaddling is much better than mine, by the way, who knew?) - I couldn't help but to feel . . . overwhelmed, scared, unprepared. Bathing seems entirely frightening. The amount of clothes to dress them in? And SIDS. Just her mentioning SIDS practically had me running from the room sobbing (I am pregnant, donchaknow).
Then there are moments like these . . . when I go to the Stirrup Queen website and see that my blog has moved on the blogroll from "Pregnancy Loss" to "Pregnancy After Infertility or Loss" and I'm just, again, so incredibly shocked . . . and thrilled . . . and in disbelief, that this is really happening. It's really quite extraordinary. The husband always believed . . . I cannot say that I was always in that same mind set.
I have a feeling I'm going to still feel shock and disbelief (and elation!) for a very long time to come.
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I always wonder if I will ever get over the disbelief.
I'm still truckin' with moments of shock and disbelief and Ava is almost 16 months, and Ethan is 9 months.
I'm glad I'm still so thankful and am not taking them for granted, though. Who wants to be one of THOSE people anyway?! :)
Don't worry too much about the bathing and taking care of baby. It's not hard. I PROMISE!
I mean, some of it is HARD, but it's not cause it's COMPLICATED! lol!!
GOOD LUCK! SOOOOOOON!
I don't always believe it, either. But there she is. Shrieking on the floor.
My husband was way better at swaddling, too.
I was also really freaked out about bathing.
It all gets easier.
A pregnant friend of mine mentioned the disbelief during dinner last weekend. And with my almost-five-year-old sleeping sweetly upstairs, I said, "Sometimes, I don't believe it either."
Bathing and swaddling and diaper-changing and all those other things get easier with time. Worry about things out of your control (like SIDS) never goes away though.
i didn;t believe until i held her. the weird thing is-it is only going to get 'worse.' i sobbed into my hands for a bit yesterday--because i looked at her and almost couldn't breathe with the realization...that.i.NEVER.loved anything this much.
and that, my friend, is alot. it is going to happen sooner than you think.
you must read happiest baby on the block it rocks for us.
Wow. I can't believe how fast this has gone. Trust me I still can't believe I had a baby. Every time I look at her I'm in shock. I'm so happy for you!
Just over two weeks left (like I need to point this out)! I'm very excited for you and will keep checking back for "news." Good luck!
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