It Ain't Easy Being Green

I was feeling very green today. As in green to the blog world. I received my first negative comment and thought, “Huzzah! First negative comment. This is cause for celebration!” Actually, I thought, “I don’t really want to get into a lot of controversy here. If I really am pregnant, I need to remain calm. I need to try to stay relaxed.” I deal with controversy and angry people on a daily basis. In my job. I don’t really want this site to be rife with people’s anger and negative comments. On the drive in, before the comment, I was thinking about deleting the post because the episode had already run and it was well, old news. Once I received the negative comment, however, I felt even more convinced that it should just be deleted. I worried that perhaps such a post was inappropriate on a blog about moving on from miscarriage. Perhaps my ones of readers were now turned off and completely disinterested in returning. Perhaps I should have another blog, in which I discuss environmental issues. I felt really terrible that I had offended this person--perhaps someone who had been kind enough to read here on a regular basis. I considered responding but then thought, no, I’m just going to delete the whole thing. So, I did. Later, I checked to find out where this person was who commented. Was she someone who had commented before? Did she have a profile? She did not. And what I discovered was, that “she”, “Grace” was posting from none other than a pesticide company in the D.C. area. A PESTICIDE COMPANY. I checked her Google search (ah, computers, you beautiful things) and she commented on several other blogs as well. This pesticide company is apparently hiring people to search out blogs that reference the episode and then comment in order to dispute any facts it finds troubling. Damage control. This episode must have pesticide companies pretty damn scared. Do they really think that posting on a few blogs will dissuade people from believing that experimenting with unknown chemicals on human subjects is unethical? Especially when so many of these subjects are poor or uneducated? When Rachel Carson’s Silent Spring was first published in the 1960s, a book which claimed that there were and are detrimental effects from the use of pesticides, she was said to be a hysteric and unqualified as a scientist to make such claims. Lawsuits were threatened. And who was behind it all? The mudslinging? The lawsuits? Chemical companies. Pesticide companies.

I won’t know for several days about the pregnancy status issue. It is driving me insane. However, something is definitely going on with me emotionally. I don't generally retreat from a good fight. These days, however, I'd rather be sleeping.