Defeat

So, I tested last night at 9 dpiui and it was a big old negative. Tested this morning, negative. Although it's early, I again don't feel like this one is going to work out. I'm feeling fairly un-pregnant. Doctor Superman gave me about a 12-15% chance with each cycle due to my age. Yikes. If I'm really "clogged up" (a phrase I frankly loathe) I don't know that I can even have a hysterosalpingogram (HSG) again to verify - as I've already had three (there's a limit due to the radiation exposure). I'm not really sure what the next step will be - I've already had four rounds of Clomid (one with a former RE). Clomid and an IUI again? I'm frankly sick of it (I know it's only been two times) but I'm not supposed to run for two weeks while we wait which is totally horrendous (and I believe, completely unnecessary but I follow it anyway). And then there's the whole Lovenox fun, too. The progesterone suppositories I don't really care about - it makes me feel more pregnant than not (soreness, etc.) but it's not really that big of a hassle (although I do kind of debate its efficacy in my case - since I used it in three (?) of my failed pregnancies).

In other news, my son's daycare is "concerned" with his "poor" pronunciation. I went to his pediatrician, fully expecting him to be nonplussed by the whole thing but instead he gave me the number for a specialist to have him evaluated. I suppose that is sound, but it worries me to no end and was not what I expected. It also makes me start wondering about dyslexia - which runs in my family. Could he be dyslexic? That's a very real possibility. Although the family members who are dyslexic are all very accomplished and intelligent people, it certainly made things like school more challenging. Plus the stigma alone is terrible . . . . In my experience not being able to understand a two year old all of the time is pretty normal. But perhaps that is not true at all.

Back to the waiting game.